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Saturday, 02 January 2010
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Let's Play... LIVE! | Episode 4
My god. This episode was frustrating. First, I was having a hell of a time beating Statue, despite having no problems getting through it in episode 3. Hell, I made it to the end TWICE, in TWO PLAYTHROUGHS that epsiode. This one... ugh. Nothing but bad aiming, and annoying enemies. Not only that, but I almost ALWAYS get lost in the level. It's like a damn maze, and we don't need mazes in FPSes. It's a stupid idea.
Street was easy once I located Valentin, with the help of one of my viewers. Then I just kind of flew through the level. Everything came to a stand-still in Depot, though, as the level is annoying, and suffers from Infinite Spawn Disease. I hate two things in games: Pit-fall sections, and infinite spawn levels. Not only that, but I could not--for the life of me--figure out how the hell to complete objective B (Destroy the Computer Network). Episode 4 ended with me flying into a rage, and still not beating the level. This marks the first episode that I only beat two levels in. Though we're still carrying on the tradition of "Third Level Is The Hardest One" that began in the first episode.
I also announced that Season 2 of LPL will be set around Borderlands on the PS3. I'll be playing the co-op mode with 3 other people (currently Mark [Musashi1596], John [Gunstarhero1988 (Xanga) | Dagon1344 (PSN)], and Loomi [Illoominator]), and we're playing from level 1, until the end of the game. We may do a second playthrough, or both DLC packs (Zombie Island of Dr. Ned, and Mad Moxxi's Underdome Riot) to lengthen the season. I'm up for the latter, as the 2nd Playthrough is just the 1st, only with harder enemies. So we'll beat it, and then use the 2PT difficulty on the DLC packs, most likely.
The last announcement I made, was that after this season is done, it will go into editing, and will eventually be released onto DVD, along with the Spec Ops Spectacular, once we get the rest of the missions done.
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First!
I really do hate people who post "FIRST!" on any comment forum. Be it in a picture thread, or forum thread, or even on here. But, then again, this is my first post of the year, so what would be more appropriate than to do a piss-take on the whole ordeal? Then again, I just ruined the atmosphere of the joke, making this whole rigamoral an exercise in fluffing up my entry, just so you don't have to read a paragraph of me talking about nothing. Which you just did. I enjoyed wasting that two minutes of your life. Trust me.
So I just got word today that HardestLevel is such a site of fail, that Xanga has opted to merge it with Mancouch. Seeing as I've had no interaction (beyond maybe a comment or two) with Mancouch, I can't really say whether or not I think this is a bad move--and frankly I don't give a shit. What this says to me is that I was right. HardestLevel was NOT in the proper hands in terms of who should be running it. HardestLevel's "Editor", Awinnerisyou (Joe), had no clue what he was doing, and was simply alienating the better site contributors.
And people didn't listen. I do not mourn the loss of HL, because while it had potential, it was doomed to failure. Not just because of Xanga's laziness, but because the users of the site were mostly blind to what was going on. Not enough people stepped up to the plate, and demanded things get better. Instead, people waited it out. It also didn't help that the Xanga team was mostly useless about everything. Or that promises were broken. Or that no one was held accountable. Essentially, HardestLevel failed because everyone involved with it didn't do their fucking jobs. Everyone was looking out for themselves, and not for the betterment of the community.
And trust me, I pity you guys. But hey, I've moved on to better things anyway, rather than be some simp begging for the attention of a half-assed moron with a shitty hat.Tomorrow I'll be hosting the fifth episode of my webshow "Let's Play... LIVE!", a live stream of me playing Goldeneye 007 on the Nintendo 64, and then I'll be chatting with Ritz (I hope), and finally, I'll be setting to work on my first review of the new year: "Demon's Souls". My goal each month is to put out at least THREE major game reviews, and maybe a couple of "Classic" game reviews as supplemental material.
If you're interested in watching, I'll be posting a new weblog entry with the live stream and chat embedded into the entry. Or, you can visit the links in my header.2010 is an important year to me, because this marks the year that Ritz and I will be seeing each other for the first time. We've sworn to put all of our efforts into saving up money for the trip, and right now I have $50 I can put towards it. I'm also going to be pushing hard on SSI to get me my hearing. I've still not heard back from them, and I feel like I fucked up somewhere. So I have to call them on Monday, and try to NOT oversleep, AGAIN.
I've been sleeping an excessive amount lately, just to make up for my complete lack of sleep before. This gets in the way of my being able to talk to Ritz, play games with my friends, and get anything productive done. Another thing I have to work on this year, is getting off the computer. Big time. I spend pretty much any moment I'm not working or sleeping, on the computer. This isn't including the time I take off for playing video games (about 4-5 hours). Since I work 4 hours a day, and sleep maybe... 4-7 hours? I usually am on the computer a good 8 hours a day. That's excessive.So, there's my "New Years" post. It contained profanity, deprecation, promises of self-improvement, and adoration for myself. Because, after all, I'm just too fucking amazing for my own good. Now if you'll excuse me, I need to go polish this platinum statue I had made of myself. Us deities need some sort of material symbol to be worshipped at.
Oh, and Happy New Year, you cunts.
Wednesday, 30 December 2009
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Pre-emptive Strike: New Year, New Me
The new year is almost upon us. You can almost smell it in the air. And a lot has changed since last year. Some for better, a lot for worse. So, with those things in mind (and I, not being able to sleep at this time), I'm compiling a short list for now, and will expound upon everything as the next day comes.
1. I am going to start putting money towards a trip to see Ritz. It's been almost 1.5 years since we've started dating, and honestly, I can't take another year not seeing her.
2. I am getting off my ass. I've pretty much narrowed down the reason WHY I get so lethargic (clinical depression), but I seem to be using it as an excuse to keep myself in this fucking chair. I missed out on an important show last week, and I'm still kicking myself over it.
3. Getting in touch with SSI is my main priority right now. With SSI backing me up, I could bring in enough money to actually afford living here, and pay off all of my debts, while still funding my trip to see Ritz.
4. Less gaming/computer purchases. This one's a tough one for me. I've been trying to turn my gaming hobby into a lucrative career through Prestige Gamerz (I'm a staff writer and publisher), but there's nowhere the site is going for some time. I literally cannot afford to purchase new games at the rate I used to; and with more responsibilities coming my way, I have to grow up a little and stop putting myself in debt to fund my gaming habits.
5. Dropping the porn would benefit me greatly. Since 16, I've probably watched over 200 hours or more worth of pornography. It's not that I dislike it, but I feel like it's affecting me negatively in some ways. I'll still go to it every now and then, but making it less of a need, and more of a part-time enjoyment would benefit me greatly; both physically and mentally.
6. Cleaning up my apartment regularly must become a habit. I am too good at letting things pile up around here, and it's been affecting my, the cats', and John's health. This can't keep going on. I was raised a whole lot better than this, and it's just irritating to know that I've been negligent of the important things in my life.
7. I will no longer let my reasons keep me from advancing. I love to find out why, but I never go further than that. I always need to know what causes things to happen, but I'm no good at finally solving things. I, instead, prefer to live through my excuses, and hope for the best. Obviously, this isn't the best route for me.
8. I need to be more communicative with Ritz. I love her, I really do, but sometimes I feel as if there's this... disconnect between us, and I shouldn't let that keep me from being straight and honest with her. This means letting her now how I'm doing, how my day was, and what I plan to do with the rest of my day. At the very least, I need to learn some better communicative skills so I can carry on a conversation with her that doesn't revolve around LOLSpeak and cuteisms.
That's all I can think of for now. I'm gonna need a lot of elbow grease, and maybe THREE therapists for this. Pill Gods, send me many bountiful baskets of beneficial "bullets"!
Sunday, 27 December 2009
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Video Games: Get It
Honestly, I think one of the most amusing things I ever hear people say is in regards to my gaming hobby. "I just don't get [games]." It's a simple sentence, but at the very core of it is something I don't get: How can you not "get" games? Seriously, the concept alone baffles me. It's not that I think those people are stupid, but rather, I cannot understand the concept of "not getting" a video game.
For example: Are you into music? Art? Sports? How about movies? If you answered "yes" to any of them, then you've "got" video games. What? That didn't grab you? Okay. Video games are a form of entertainment. Read that carefully. Video games are a form of entertainment. What's so different about video games is the level of interactivity they share with both the creators of the games, and the consumers of the games.
When you go to a concert, you can't control the songs that the band plays. Or how loud the speakers are. You don't control when it begins, or when it ends. A painting? You have no influence over how it looks when it comes out, or where the painting is stored. And a movie? I think you get my point. Each medium allots for only so much interactivity, but each one stands on its own merits as a form of legitimate entertainment.
This is why I get annoyed by the narrow-minded individuals who go so far as to assert that any medium is "superiour" to the medium of the video game. The video game grants the consumer the rare opportunity to "control" what they're seeing. If you don't like a scene, you can skip it, or look in another direction (in some games). In other games, what you do in one section can affect what happens in another (positively, or negatively). This applies not only to people, but items, quests, and even endings. The video game medium allows for the player to (in most cases) craft a story based on themselves.
Good examples of this are RPGs (Role Playing Games) such as Dragon Age: Origins, Fallout 3, Borderlands, and most Dungeons & Dragons games. These games give you a basic character model, in which you can allocate points to strengthen your character to suit the way you think and play the best. Some people prefer power, so they'll allocate their points into strength, and use strong weapons to deal massive damage right away. Others prefer stealth, and will allocate points into agility and silent skills (like backstab).
Another example would be the Grand Theft Auto series. While having a linear story, the GTA series allows the player to approach most objectives in the manner they see as best. Whether that is ramming their car into the objective til it explodes/dies, or firing rockets from a rooftop.
The basis of gaming is to allow the player to experience a story that is driven by THEIR actions, and involves the player in the decisions of the Player Character (PC). This creates a medium that is completely UNLIKE the other art mediums out there. But that's not all.
Gaming (like music, and art) has many genres and sub-genres. One of the more popular (current) genres is the "Rhythm Music" genre (Rock Band, Guitar/DJ/Band Hero). The genre consists of a game built around pre-existing musical tracks (from all different types of musical genres), and allows the player to "play" the song, by hitting pre-set "notes" on-screen. One of the benefits of this genre is the improvement of hand-eye-coordination. In fact, this isn't just limited to "Rhythm Music" games, but Light-Gun games (Time Crisis, CarnEvil, House Of The Dead, Silent Scope, et al.) as well. In fact, many games rely on the player developing a good reflex system, and ability to adapt to varying situations.
A good example of this is in the latest PS3 exclusive release, Demon's Souls. It is a game that is touted as one of the hardest games ever made. The game is hard, but with the ability to adapt to each enemy, and situation, you can progress further within the game, and drive the story to its conclusion. This is what sets the gaming medium into a different realm of art than other formats. This is not to say that gaming is BETTER than other forms of art, but that it is unique, and a valid form of entertainment; as well as a beneficial past-time.It's not hard to "get" video games, because there is nothing to "get". Gaming is simply an interactive medium; a hobby. Gaming has come a long way since the days of PacMan, and Missile Command. Games today carry steep budgets (Infinity Ward's "Call Of Duty 6: Modern Warfare 2" cost $40-50 million to produce), and "Blockbuster/Hollywood" storylines (See: Uncharted 2: Among Thieves). Games try to introduce in-depth characters, dramatic set-pieces, hard hitting action set-pieces, and are trying harder and harder to immerse players into their fantasy worlds. Gaming is also undergoing studies to determine the positive, and negative effects of playing them.
Gaming has definitely matured since the conception of games in 1947; not only as an entertainment medium, but as an art form. Brushing it off because you can't enjoy it, is pretty much as ignorant as claiming a person's musical tastes is "wrong". And trying to "get it", will only stop you from being able to enjoy it.
Tuesday, 22 December 2009
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Spewing Forth From The Confines Of Insomnia: The Chronicles Of Whatthefuckisms
Every time I sit down to write out some in-depth blog entry, I continually blank out for some reason. Then, I get distracted, and turn my attentions to something like a bath, or food, or annoying the cat with loud noises and tossing her into the air. Or sticking needles into little dolls in the vain hopes that somewhere, someone's baby will die, and give me one more person to piss on my grave over my "Dead Baby Joke" Facebook group.
But, in the end, it always boils down to me not really having the muse, nor energy to fully exert myself the way I used to. To be honest, I've little care nor energy to do ANYTHING anymore. I don't cook, clean... hell, it's a miracle that I still bathe myself anymore. And to be honest, I have no clue why. I'm not really depressed--at least, not noticeably... and I really would like to blame it on the winter. But the truth is that I've been like this since Summer. Hell, I think I might've been like this during SPRING too. Fuck all if I know why I don't care about much anymore, but I sure damn don't.
Which is doubly funny, because I've got some nice little writing gig going on for a gaming website. And if I could muster up some actual fucking motivation, I might actually be able to launch that site into the gaming stratosphere. But, I'm just too damn uncaring to... well... care to do it.
Another excuse I've been toying with in my head, is that I'm really just waiting until Ritz gets to the US. Now hold on, don't get uppity just yet. My mind has a reason for everything. It just takes a lot of connects to get to my solutions. One of my biggest concerns is that I rely on the women in my life too much. I did on my mother, but that's because many people in my life convinced me that I was useless without her support. She fought my legal battles (what, you expect a 14 year old Autistic to do it himself?), has been helping me pay my bills, fought the school district, fought the parents of my bullies... Hell, I'm shocked at how often she'd clean my damn room for me.
I've also always been reliant on the girlfriends I've had. Dina pretty much was able to convince me to change my major. Three times. Jill and Jess both cleaned the house while I was away at work; so I guess I'm just banking too much on Ritz, and that's unfair to her. In a lot of ways. Then again, it's only a theory of mine, and I don't fully support it as accurate.
Another thought I've tossed around is that I've just become blank. I've dealt with excessive bullshit; incredibly stupid people who undervalue who I am; and generally just uncaring sycophants who should've been put down about half a second into their conception. Fuck all if I know what's got me, but all I know is that I am living in a bubble of blankness. Nothing really piques my interest; but when it does, it's explosive. For awhile. Then I just... blank out.
Thankfully, Ritz is a rare exception in my life. I find that with her, I have an inexhaustible amount of... I can't think of the word, but she serves as my anti-thesis to my Nothing Bubble. Maybe it's her warmness; or her sugary coating. Whatever it is, Ritz makes me feel inspired to do things. Which is mostly why I've sort of come back to this shit-hole.
Maybe... just maybe... Ritz's "Paradigm Theory" is more accurate. Maybe I've set a standard for myself that I intend to match up to. Maybe I've been simply self-destructing, just to prove my life's nay-sayers right. Then again, they told me I'd never have sex; or find someone who loves me; or finish high-school.
Guess I showed them wrong, eh?
Eh, fuck all if I know what's really digging my dirt. I just felt like getting it out there.
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Thank you all for reminding me exactly why I stopped writing on here. Now get the fuck off my site.


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